You know what scares me? The future and my living in it. Because when you look back, I dont think a hundred years go by without something horrific, and mostorous happening. And often, it happens multiple times.
WW1 and WW2 happened within about 25 years of each other.
As much as I love to dream about my future, and everything that I plan to do, to accomplish, to make a difference for the better, I cant help know something will happen that will alter my plan of course. Its a horrible, sinking feeling and I wish there was something I could do to wash all the hatred away that causes these tragdedies. These tradgedies that everyone looks back on in history and goes "wow, that was horrible, we'll learn from our mistake and make sure it'll never happen again". Ha. My drivers ed teacher nailed it today when she said " you can't fix stupid, and you can't predict psycho" . She may have been talking about driving, but her quote applies to much else. Life, for example.
Did you know that if I live 86 more years I will have lived in 3 centruies and lived more than 100 years?
(if you're going to try to figure out my age from that - I dont even know if you can - but i'll save you the trouble, I'm 15)
After having figured that out only about a week ago, I'm now pretty determined to live it out. Its pretty amazing if you think about it. I can only hope that nothing happens.
Vanity Fair's September 2010 issue has a poll on their "The 60 Minutes/ Vanity Fair Poll" section with the question "Do you think that Americans of "Generation Y"- generally defined as young people born after 1980- will have a quality of life that is better or worse than that of the baby-boomers?" The ages of people that they polled were; all, <30, 30-44, 45-64, and 65+, and every group had a wide gap between "better" and worse", and every group voted worse. After reading that I was immediatly pissed, and then I was saddened, and now, I honestly couldnt agree more. When you look back at the centuries that have passed, you see all the death and tradgedies. And because, after all, shit happens.
{photo by Kara O'Keefe}
I know this was a word heavy post -- serious heavy too, and so, if you read it, I greatly appreciate it. I generally dont post things so serious, but sometimes, there are things that I think deserve to be pondered and thought about in all seriousness. The future, and all that happens in it, will affect everyone and everything.